: I could never picture myself doing this, but I don't hate it : 2003-03-14 : 9:14 p.m.

He (BJ) leaves on his mission in a week or so. Tonight was his 'happy birthday' and 'have fun on your mission' party. It was a big dance upstairs in his house. It is really sad to see him go though, because....even though I never talked to him....but he's so cool. He's that guy that would listen to your problems, even if he doesn't know you. See, we never really knew eachother, but as I walk in and he see's me, we immeadietly go into a 'wrestling' state where we start to bend down and get ready to tackle eachother. We're moving around and suddenly he lurches and grabs my legs and pulls me upside down over his shoulder and we spin a little. Then, is his sweet and handsome way, he takes me off of his shoulder in his arms and slowly sets me down on the ground. He's so nice, and he's hot too. I doubt I will see him again. And that makes me so freaking sad. Wow. Well, that will be my favorite and last memory of him. I already miss him and he hasn't left yet.

Being as my day was outstanding, I can't actually truly explain it here. Today was so outstanding, and I can't explain it. Bach and I got so close today. We learned about eachother, we talked about everything, and we cuddled all night. At the dance, before the dance, after the dance, it was truly outstanding. Since people I know have this site, I'm not going to explain it. All I'll say is....we went to the beach, then cuddled in a park, then in a parking lot, then went to the danced and slow danced a bazillion times. Now, you sick minded people, 'cuddling' is holding hands and stuff, not...anything big. But...today...really...rocked....I can't wait till monday...

"I could never picture myself doing this....but I don't hate it."

MZM